100 to 0

I started this to make me feel better. Now I have nothing to say. And I have nothing to feel. Boyfriend barely talks to me. Not Boyfriend barely talks to me. 100 to 0 reeaaal fuckin quick.

I get in moods like these and want something new to spice up my life. I want to go out and buy new furniture or new makeup or new clothes and somehow I think a different bedspread and a fresh Tarte palette is going to miraculously change my life! Surprise! It doesn’t! It changes my bank account. That’s it. Last time I got in this mood, I bought a new car. Then I went on a cruise. Then I came back from the cruise to a new car and developed post-cruise depression. Now, thanks to HGTV, I feel the need to buy a house and flip it. That’s the kind of change my life needs. I at least need to start with my bedroom. I need some inspo. I need some blogs. Someone help.

I’ve got this old timey turquoise theme going on right now. I need new bedding, STAT. I’ve needed new sheets for a while, but my last menstrual cycle really confirmed that for me. Hello, brown stains! Now my issue is, running up a tab and money. And I’m picky. And then somehow buying a new bedspread leads to me questioning my whole life like what the fuck am I going to do after I buy it?? Go to college?? For what? What am I gonna be when I “grow up”?? Will I ever “grow up”?? IS THERE SUCH A THING! Then that leads to me taking career quiz upon career quiz online. Never happy with the results.

Question: TO ALL MY REALTORS OUT THERE. What’s that like? Do you like?

Ugh.